The Romance of LOGIC and of Two Hearts...

Greetings, Blogtypes!

I write tonight on the subject of LOVE....AMORE....AGAPE....

I am not quite sure if I know much about this subject. In fact, I am not sure if I've ever been in love. Don't get me wrong, I am in love with the IDEA with being in love, but seem to be unable to get that far with any man. I get bored easily. Moreover, there seems to be a delicate balance between the prudishness one finds in many Catholic circles and the absolute boorishness one finds in secular men. Perhaps my ideals are too high? One thing I know is that, as Beatrice put it in "Much Ado about Nothing"- He that is less than a man, I am not for him! I need a strong, masculine man in my life! Like Anne of Green Gables said, "I wouldn't marry anyone who was really wicked, but I think I'd like it if he could be wicked and wouldn't."

Can it really be true that "chivalry is dead"? I am starting to believe more and more that it is DYING, if not already dead.

Feminism has demasculated men...to the point that even "strong men" don't know how to treat a lady correctly...courting is a thing of the past, methinks.

Now, I take the example of the clip shown above, from Masterpiece Theatre's "Jane Eyre" (Starring Ruth Wilson and Toby Stephens). The scene prior has Jane reveal that, since her departure from Thornfield Hall as the Governess there, she has become an independent, wealthy woman through an inheritance. Connect that with the passion and depth of Jane, you can see that she is QUITE the prize. What I love about her relationship with Edward Rochester is their union of minds that is first emphasized by the author. Wild hearts and Inquisitive Minds...and strength of soul that can be only attained through common survival through suffering.

I think that is such an ideal...that union of minds and souls...stronger than any friendship or infatuation. This is the true source of what the Greeks called, "AGAPE"...the love of the gods, love tested and purified as gold in fire. So, yes, this is what I am wanting, and I will seek after it until it is found. I believe it still exists, because it comes from One Who is INCARNATE LOVE, and I cannot believe He would create the desire for such a love if I was to settle for shallow EROS. I believe such shallowness is the norm for society today. Narcissism is the name of the game, and the game is played every day.

So, I'm sure many of you are wondering why I am writing this?

For the past year, I've been talking on and off with a man...a man I thought a gentleman and one who really captured my attention by capturing my mind. We had quite a bit in common, and our conversations were normally very solid and strong, keeping me attentive and involved. Yes, I did use the word "had" in the past tense, because as of this past weekend and the lack of communication from this man, I have left it to him to contact me if he is truly interested. He has not done so, leaving it to me to believe he had been playing games and has been dishonest--and he was REALLY GOOD at doing this. He had me convinced he was really interested, and I (the one who can usually read people so well!) fell for it!

I have admitted, quite openly, that I have trouble connecting on this level with most of the men I meet. This is simply because almost from the moment I meet them, I read EXACTLY what they want...they want sex. I'm not that type of girl, I've chosen the path of abstinence until I am married, so I automatically am turned off from any type of connection with said men (unless it is to play with their minds when they get a little too bold for their own good!). I think this experience will inevitably (and naturally) cause me to put up barriers, distrusting even those who seem decent and good. I am going to seriously work against doing so, but you all can sympathize. I guess this man broke through and broke my heart a little.

I pray that those of you, men and women, who are seeking that union of minds and souls know that you are not alone seeking HIGHER things. I hope that those who have found it will witness it, and those who may have not developed it in their relationship yet will grow into this love. And for my fellow singletons, of whom I reluctantly rejoin...lol...I want you to know that you are not alone. God does not place that desire for this love without a plan to fulfill it beyond our comprehension. Stay strong; Help me to stay strong; and do not despair--seek only to LOVE!